So, the other day, I was on Pinterest–of course–and I saw a really interesting quotation. It read “If you want to learn what someone fears losing, watch what they photograph.” Now, I’m not really sure if that is true, but it got me thinking when I went out in the woods with my family today. I really enjoy taking pictures of nature-of flowers, trees, and especially water. Now, you might be thinking “oh geez, according to this weird criteria, she is afraid of losing nature…pshhh!” Yeah, I thought that at first, but, as you may know, many simple things in life can have another meaning tucked just under the surface.
Every time I see something in nature I feel the need to take a picture of it. I do the same thing with flowers that I get. I thought about this today since, it seems, everything that happens to me has some symbolic meaning behind it (at least to me). I think that since things in nature so often change or die, I fear the possibility that I may not be able to see whatever I photograph again. Nature is so incredibly beautiful and complex; there never seems to be another opportunity to see the same thing twice. Even if you see the same thing, the sunlight would be different, the foliage, the sounds, the weather..everything will change making every sight unique.
I think I fear things going away. I hate the thought of the fresh flowers I have sitting on the table wilting or of me having to leave the beautiful beach with its setting sun. When I really contemplate this, I wonder if maybe I fear forgetting more than anything. Maybe I fear forgetting the image of the waves crashing against the rocks at the ocean and the things I feel when I see that. Maybe I fear that after the changes of this life happen, I won’t remember the beautiful things I’ve experienced in the past like sunsets, mountaintops, and newborn babies. I think those are the things I take pictures of most–the things I can’t bear to forget.